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Name: Bernadette
Gender: Female
Interests: booze, snes, tea, coffee, philadelphia, dance, emotron, my cat, alice in wonderland, blogging, art, history, conspiracy theories, reading, and writing.
Expertise: metal
Industry: Retail
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AIM:  Mangogiraffe
Member Since:
2/2/2007
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| So, I always manage to neglect a blog for a little while because I am too into using a different one. I for certain have yet to master the ability to multi-task.
I guess an update is well needed in this case. I stopped doing that whole kooky diet type thing after the raw diet failed. Our friend Steph moved into my room in May to help us out with rent, but in the end screwed us over by not paying us anything. I am suppose to be starting school in two months at The Art Institute of Philadelphia, but of course there have been some minor setbacks with my school loans. Our lease runs out here in two months, and I'm not sure if I am dorming, or finding my own place to live.
Pretty much I find that I have a lot of very difficult decisions to make in the very near future. I can't say this enough, but I really hate being an adult. I don't think I was in anyway prepared for such responsibilities. I'm in so much debt that I can't even start a bank account. That shouldn't be happening when you are only twenty years old. I'm really afraid to see what my future holds at this point just because I feel like I am failing at life.
In some ways I am rather impressed with myself. I've been really trying to stick a budget. I feel like that is impossible, but other people manage to live with even less money.
Here's to hoping things work out! | | |
| Raw diet failed. I suck at life I guess.
Oh, well! | | |
| It really seems like time is going by so fast. 2008 flew by, but now 2009 is going by faster. I knew time was supposed to fly after high school, but this is a little ridiculous! Maybe once school starts time will slow down again, but somehow that seems impossible. Sometimes I feel like everything that has happened in the past two years has been a dream, and that I'll wake up up and still be in high school. I don't think I'd mind that too much either.
For some odd reason I really feel so strange about not being in high school anymore. I've said this so many times on here that it is even becoming annoying to myself. I just wish I knew why. Maybe I don't feel like I did things right back then. Maybe I think that people would really enjoy the person I have become since then. It really doesn't matter to me though. How bizarre.
It's my Saturday off today, and it's raining. I really want to go out, but something is holding me back. I feel so lazy, and maybe it's for the best. That way i won't spend the money I have on pointless things like I want to. I think I am going to do laundry, or something. That always gets my spirits lifted for some reason. | | |
| Day one of eating raw went interestingly. Aubrey and I did some some shopping around the city because it was a gorgeous day. I kept getting cravings for something warm in my stomach but I found that just drinking hot tea fills the void. I bought a whole bunch of fruits and veggies at the grocery store, and hopefully tomorrow will invest in some more dried fruits and nuts. Apparently you can get really sick from doing this so I am trying to be careful. I am not cutting out milk, or bread. They are totally processed, but I know I'll get really sick if don't eat them. Instead of cows milk I am drinking soy milk. Really, that's making no difference whatsoever, but whatever.
Just thirteen more days, and I'll be done!
I forgot to mention that my Dad informed me that my Mom signed the divorce papers. I guess that means things are officially over. I am happy for them, but mainly him. For some reason I always expected myself to be really upset. He's happy, and he is in such a great place though. I never would have expected him to have moved on so soon. Nor, would I have expected him finding a nice woman who treats him well. I'm glad my family is going somewhere finally. I have no idea what my Mother is doing, but I also have no desire to find out.
I am really excited for this wedding, but I am really nervous about how things are going to work out. I hope nothing goes wrong. My Dad has endured enough misfortunes at this point in his life. | | |
| I have a lot of house cleaning to do. I really don't want to say we are pigs, but it seems like this place gets trashed within three to four days after cleaning. I think I lose all drive to clean when it happens like that. We really don't have a lot of storage space though and as each day goes by we seem to have more stuff. Our refrigerator is the worst, and I am going to clean that out once I am fully awake.
I got the second half of my tax refund, and it really took me by surprise. It's nice to have a little bit of money coming in randomly every now and then. I am going to spend a little on my food for the week, and maybe do some thrift shopping. I am kinda excited to find out what my paycheck will look like for my new schedule. It'll probably be just over $200, but I believe towards the end of this month I should be receiving a raise. I know I still won't be making over $8.00 an hour which is sort of depressing because I started at $8.00 an hour at Bucks County Coffee and Superfresh.
I guess I might go to The Marvelous tonight for a show. I still haven't decided. $5.00 is a bit much to pay to see a show these days. | | |
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